Saturday, October 30, 2004

Thai Mass Massacre.

The Muslim community is again shocked with the news of over 80 Thai Muslim who died after being piled up in a truck by the Thai army. What's even more saddening was that it happened in the holy month of Ramadhan. Many are speculating about this incident on whether it was a deliberate attack on the Muslims or whether the Thai army was that STUPID and that DUMB to think that people would survive piled up like sardines for a 6 hour trip to the jail.

Personally I'm disappointed with the Prime Minister. I may be wrong but it seems as though that he doesn't put much blame on the army. It's true that these people were demonstraters but according to the people even innocent bystanders were captured and treated like dirt. What has the world come to?

Pattani has always been an Muslim dominated region and they've been fighting to become an independant state for a long time but it's a wonder why Thailand, a Buddhist country, would still want to keep on Pattani. This tragedy would now fuel the fire of the Reformist at hands and soon there would undoubtedly be more protests and demonstration and perhaps more bloodshed.

It's a pity that this tragedy had to happen now when people should be celebrating nad preparing for eid. Rantau Panjang has now become a deadtown because of the tragedy and I seriously pity those traders who look forward to festive seasons to boost up their sales. I have relatives in Golok and I wonder how they are right now and I hope things are okay for them over there.

I think the army should be blamed foe what happened and Thailand should take action on those who were involved. Just because you were given the authority to apprehend people but it does not give you the right to kill.

Another side of the rich brats.

Like Nina last Thursday I watched the program "The Simple Life" which features Paris Hilton, heiress of the Hilton Hotels empire, and her best friend Nicole Richie, daughter of Lionel Richie. They're shipped off to a remote farm town, stripped of their cellphones and money and are forced to work. At first I thought this program would be hilarious(still is). Imagine two rich brats trying to work at a farm. I've never liked Paris Hilton and thinks that she looks like a skank. I've always wondered why GUESS would actually take her on as a model. I just can't see where her beauty lies. She's so shallow! All kids born with a proverbial silver spoon are.

But after watching the show I've realised that somehow I was also the shallow one. All these while I've only judged Paris Hilton through the pictures that I see and through the stories that the media feed us. In a way the show shows the world her personality. What I saw was a little girl stuck in a woman's body always craving attention. Granted that she has been pampered like mad and there were moments when vanity and rich kid syndrome took over but overall she seemed okay. She was polite, she does as she's told and she really cares about her mom and about the feelings of those who were hosting her. Even Nicole was polite. I guess it's not their fault that they had soooo much money at their disposal.

But the show is cool and at least those two would feel how it is to really work. Yeah they may be working now as a model or as a singer or whatever it is they do but cold hard labour would do them some good. Thank God that they're sporting enough to go along with what the producer had in store for them.

The other show "Young, rich and loaded" was just too tasteless to watch. If you guys say Paris Hilton and Nicole Richie was spoiled I don't know what you can call these guys. They're so aimless and life and their main purpose of living is to finish off all the money their parents earned. There's this scene in themovie 'White Chicks' where the bad guy finally tells his family that they're bankrupt but because they're so used to living grandly that he had to resort to kidnapping rich kids for ransom. Just goes to show that too much of a good thing is never good. Anyways, I just hope my kids wont be like that when I become a millionaire:P


Heyya Guys!

I had a nice suprise when I checked out my blog today to see Tinie, one of my uni juniors, left me a message. What's cool is that she has her own blog but what's even better is that some of the others are bloggers too. I know I sound rather 'jakun' and totally not 'savvy' at all but I am kinda new at this blogging thing so bear wif me:P

Neways I kinda liked some of the skins that they used especially Dianne. I've always had a thing about old antique looking parchments and romantic scripts (blame the jiwang karat in me). But you wanna know something funny, I've always wondered who uses the same skin as I do and I finally found someone who did. I just never thought it would be someone I know. Talk about irony! But... since I've made major changes to the skin I think I can safely say that the skin is one in a million now though credits still go out to dreamwalker for creating a really fantastic skin for me to start with. What I'm really happy about now is that I finally have a page counter! But for now it makes my page looks like a wuss cause the counter only up to number 10 although the page has been up for like months. Oh well... still looking for stuff to add on though especially games.

It's nice to finally find some other bloggers that I know. It's cool to read some stranger's blog but for me that's like reading fiction but you don't really know all the characters involved so it's not much fun. When you read your friend's blogs you relate to what you read. Their blogs are like a small portal to their souls. Sometimes you see more of the writer in their writings than through the person themselves. In some ways, writing gives you the freedom you crave that speech can't but writing also gives you control too so there's not much room for mistakes in writing. At least that's how I feel. I fell more at ease if I let out my feelings through writing rather than speech. It's an outlet for me because I know that no one judges me when I write and it's up to me what I write. I guess that's why literature appeal so much to me. Freedom of expression all through writing even in drama ad theater. It all starts out with someone penning their emotions and their message and then actors come and act out those emotions in the purest form of expression. No barriers hence the beauty of theater.

I know Matt is kinda disappointed sometimes when I pen down my feelings more rather than talk it out with him. But it's hard when you've been emotionally dependant for so long that letting everything out doesn't come natural to you. It's even harder when you're trying to let someone in.

You know, blogs have helped me in more ways than I realised. Life has been like a wheel for me lately with constant ups and downs thus resulting in me drawing away from friends and spending quality solitary time. I hope my friends don't blame Matt for my absence(although he is to blame a little:P). It's just that time is now an essence for a much needed change in myself and I think it's working so far. I've detected change but I just don't know whether its enough. This choice of mine doesn't come easy for sometimes I do feel left out when I hear of them hanging out but it's my choice so I gotta bear with it. Thank god some have blogs. In a way I get to catch up with them and for them to catch up with me too. This holiday will be part of my thinking time so I'm hoping that Sem 2 will be a new start for me. I just hope...


You know what's frustrating? Typing out a whole blog and as soon as you were about to publish it the screen goes to "server error! Please refresh". Yeap... all that blog gone just like that! God I feel like strangling the monitor!

Friday, October 29, 2004

Do you ever wonder about the people out there in cyberspace?

Do you ever wonder about the people out there in cyberspace? Are they like us in every way or are they different in more ways than you could imagine. Well I for one don't usually think bout those kind of things. I usually assume that most people would be like me (exception to all the perverted sex maniacs out there-they're not even in my category!) What I mean by this is that I dont usually think about all the special (disabled) people out there who uses the net too.

I was fortunate to meet one of those people one day but what suprises me even more is that he was so cool about his disability that I actually didn't believe him at all at first. I even made a joke about what he said which I regret terribly later on but he was really cool and even went alon with the joke. I always thought that special people would be rather sensitive about their disability but I guess I was wrong. No wonder they're called special.

Adam is an 18 year old guy who looks like any normal guy and he goes to ITM Shah Alam. What's different about him is that he's deaf. Imagine living in a world where everything is silent. It's quite daunting and very lonely. Although I don't have experience but I think I have a vague idea on what Adam's world would be like. I got an ear infection about a week back and I had to put ear drops every night for 5 nights in a row. As a result I became deaf in one ear. It was horrible! I couldn't hear anything on my left and everyone had to speak louder just so I could hear what they're trying to say. I also got overly sensitive about my lack of hearing that Matt and I actually got into a fight when he teased me about being deaf. Suffice to say I couldn't survive the 5 days and went back for treatment on the third day. That experience has taught me a big lesson and out of all the 5 senses I dont think I ever want to lose my hearing. When you can't hear it's like being shut off from the rest of the world. But I hope I never have to make a choice between my 5 senses. I cherish them all.

Adam is lucky that he has supportive family who were willing to learn sign language to communicate with him. The family were even featured in 'Wanita' because they were so supportive towards Adam. What I really respect about this guy is that he wants to be a teacher because he wants to help others who are like him. I guess when you lack something that everybody else has you appreciate whatever else you have even more. All I can say now is "You go Adam!"

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Tuesday, October 26, 2004

Homemaker extraordinaire!

I feel like a total homemaker today. I made like several batches of choc chip cookies for raya as well as for my daily consumption(They're so YUMMY!) and also made my famous macaroni soupfor berbuka. Tehee! I'm so proud of myself. What's so good about raya is that this is the time when we get to eat all the good stuff that we reserve for special occasions. It's like a reward for holding out the whole day. Last night Yuni made her famous roast steak complete with mash potatoes and gravy. Too bad my brother aint here. If he knew how good the food we're having every day he'll probably kill himself :P

I dunno why suddenly my blogskin is having prob so I've decided to change the pic. I hope the original designer doesn't throw a fit or something. Her skin is way cool and I hate to lose the pic but something is up so a blogger gotta do what a blogger gotta do. So I hope people like the new look.

Neways boredom has already started to settle in and I'm desperate for something fun to do. There's nothing much you can do actually that doesn't involve foodstuff. Even going to the movies won't be the same when you can't have popcorn to enjoy the movie with.*sigh* Just goes to show how much your life evolves around food and eating. Even updating blogs won't be as much fun if you don't have much to write about.

Someone... please help me figure out what to do this hols?!!

What type of love I am.

Me and Him

You are dependent love. You want protection. You
want someone to be able to depend on. You do
not wish to lead.

What kind of love are you?
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It's been awhile...

Woah it's been awhile since I last blogged. I wonder how Sheena and Alia still find the time to actually go online and blog what with all the exams and puasa time. Yeap... it's finally Ramadhan and thank GOD exams are finally over. Exams were quite a drag and I dont think I managed to score for even one paper. Comp app was definitely a flop. I'll be lucky even if I even managed to get a B. All others... yuck! Anyways... I don't wanna think about it but I pray to god to be merciful on me and maybe I can manage to scrape by and mantain my pointers (Please God... PLEASE!)

Bad news for me... my beloved phone has finally gone dead. After 3 years of serving me faithfully it finally gave up. So now I'm on a mission to get myself a new phone. I already have a budget so I just wanna see what phone is cool out there. Since I already have a digicam I don't think it's necessary to get me a cameraphone but I definitely want it to be colour screen. So far what catches my eyes are Samsung and Sony Ericson. Can't wait to go phone shopping!

Ramadahan is here and Puasa is definitely the best month of the year. I just feel like everyone is more patient(Duh!) and tolerant. Now why cant most everyone be like this during other times then for sure the world will be a much better place. This advice goes to me too coz the other day I got into a cat fight with an indon worker at Alpha Angle. We had a difference of opinion on a certain matter and I admit I was wrong but somehow ego and lack of patience just didnt let me admit I was wrong and so the catfight continues. My advantage then was that I was a girl and he was a guy so if he did anything he'd be the one to blame. Hehe! Thank God Matt was there. If not the guy would probably punch me. Anyways, the moral here is that patience would probably make me think first before I say anything that would land me into bigger trouble.

Oh yeah... don't mind the pic I was just testing out Hello the new picture sharing thing. It's pretty okay coz at least I dont hafta log in before the 3rd of every month if not my account will be terminated unlike miamihost. So that's a picture of Matt and I at Midsummer night's staging. I miss him terribly. But it's cool to have the hols coz at least this would give me time to really sort out my feelings for him. Let's just hope the saying 'Out of sight, out of mind' doesnt apply in both our cases here.

On a more funny note, a cupboard attacked me 2 nights ago and I managed to escape with a big scratch on my right eyelid, a red eye and scratches on the bridge of my nose. Seriously I look like a pirate. The funny thing was when it happened it hurt like hell but I just couldn't stop laughing. I thought it was hilarious that I actually managed to bang my head on a cupboard. Granted that it was pitch black but I should have been more careful. So now I have to live looking like a pirate for a while. Arr... shiver me timbers! Off to buka puasa then me matey... har... har... har...

P.S. There's this creepy Egyptian guy who's been stalking me and I'm seriously thinking of getting myself a bodyguard. He just doesn't get it when a girl is not interested. He's actually flown all the way from Egypt to meet up with me. At times like these I thank god that my phone is out of order so he can't call me up. Now that's another mystery itself how the heck did he get my phone number? I know I didn't give it to him. Hmm...

A Beautiful Prayer

Dear Brothers and Sisters in Islam

I asked Allah to take away my habit.
Allah said, No. It is not for me to take away, but for you to
give it up.

I asked Allah to make my handicapped child whole.
Allah said, No. His spirit is whole, his body is only temporary

I asked Allah to grant me patience.
Allah said, No. Patience is a byproduct of tribulations; it isn't granted, it is learned.

I asked Allah to give me happiness.
Allah said, No. I give you blessings; Happiness is up to you.

I asked Allah to spare me pain.
Allah said, No. Suffering draws you apart from worldly cares and brings you closer to me.
I asked Allah to make my spirit grow.
Allah said, No. You must grow on your own! , but I will prune you to make you fruitful.

I asked Allah for all things that I might enjoy life.
Allah said, No. I will give you life, so that you may enjoy allthings.

I ask Allah to help me LOVE others, as much as Heloves me.
Allah said...Ahhhh, finally you have the idea.


May Allah Bless You, To the world you might be one person, but to one
person you just might be the world"

For all the negative things we have to say to ourselves
Allah has a positive answer for it.

You say: "It's impossible"
Allah says: All things are possible

You say: "I'm too tired"
Allah says: I will give you rest

You say: "I can't go on"
Allah says: My grace is sufficient

You say: "I can't figure things out"
Allah says: I will direct your steps

You say: "I can't do it"
Allah says: You can do all things

You say: "I'm not able"
Allah says: I am able

You say: "It's not worth it"
Allah says: It will be worth it

You say: "I can't forgive myself"
Allah says: I FORGIVE YOU

You say: "I can't manage"
Allah says: I will supply all your needs

You say: "I'm afraid"
Allah says: I have not given you a spirit of fear

You say: "I'm always worried and frustrated"
Allah says: Cast all your cares on ME

You say: "I don't have enough faith"
Allah says: I've given everyone a measure offaith

You say: "I'm not smart enough"
Allah says: I give you wisdom

You say: "I feel all alone"
Allah says: I will never leave you or forsake you

You say: "Nobody really loves me"
Allah says: I love you

May Allah Be Pleased With all muslims Ameen.

I love each and every muslim for the Pleasure of Allah !

"It is in rememberance of Allah that the heart finds peace"


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