Moving on...

Never ever thought that moving-on was a long drawn out process. Just when you think that all was well, then BAM that old feeling of sadness, regret, yada yada yada comes rushing back again. God how it sucks! If only wounds would heal faster. Life would be so less complicated.

I mean what's the point in living life looking back into the past, right? But as much as you try not to let the past haunt you, it does. A person who doesn't have the past haunting them are only humanoids void of feelings. Seriously...

I mean everything that happens in life happens for a reason and your future, your entire self was shaped by what happened earlier in your life. So the past does matter, it's just a matter of how much you let it effect you.

Right now, all I wanna do is to speed up my recovery process. I just wanna forget about my past and get on with life with maximum happiness. Urgghh... healing sucks. Why does it have to take so long!?

Desperado

God... don't you hate it when these people don't know when to back off!! Seriously give people room to breath...

There's no denying it even the most attractive people will turn BLEARGH when they start oozing desperate vibes. It's a definite turn off. Even desperate people don't go for other desperate people. Desperate just ain't rite!!

So you wanna know if you're desperate? Do you ever...

1. Hint off a relationship just after a few sms-es to somebody (and you haven't even met that person yet!!)?

2. Do you start posting up pictures of that person in your phone and computer just after a few phone calls?

3. Do you talk off a "connection" after a few conversations with a person?

If you say YES to even one of the questions then you are DEFINITELY desperate!! So cool it! Desperation will only achieve one thing... all your potential dates running at full speed in the opposite direction. Yes... even the butt ugly ones. Trust me, I speak from experience. All those questions I asked... I had to endure that from a guy I know through the net, whom I have never ever met before and was already talking about our parents meeting after a few days of sms-ing. *screams* I'm suffocating by just thinking about it! Now I have to figure out a way to make a graceful sprint in the opposite reaction.

No offence to all of you desperados out there but this is for your own good. Tone it down!! There's nothing that interests people more than a good ol' hard-to-get chase. Getting to know somebody is like knowing there's a juicy prize at the end of a long race but those who rush to get it might accidentally kick it further from reach.

It's the flirting that keeps people going. The playful banterings and the hints of better things to come will just keep people coming back for more. Ain't that right people?

Marriage...

Marriage - Part I

Typical macho man married typical good-looking lady and after the wedding, he laid down the following rules:

"I'll be home when I want, if I want and at what time I want and I don't expect any hassle from you. I expect a great dinner to be on table unless I tell you that I won't be home for dinner. I'll go hunting, fishing, boozing and card-playing when I want with my old buddies and don't you give me a hard time about it. Those are my rules. Any comments?"

His new bride said, "No, that's fine with me. Just understand that there will be sex here at seven o'clock every night .....whether you're here or not."


(DAMN SHE'S GOOD!)

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Marriage (Part II)

Husband and wife had a bitter quarrel on the day of their 40th wedding anniversary!

The husband yells, "When you die, I'm getting you a headstone that
reads:

"Here Lies My Wife - Cold As Ever "

"Yeah?" she replies. "When you die, I'm getting you a headstone that reads:


"Here Lies My Husband - Stiff At Last"

(HE ASKED FOR IT!)

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Marriage (Part III)

Husband (a doctor) and his wife are having a fight at the breakfast table. Husband gets up in a rage and says, "And you are no good in bed either," and storms out of the house.

After some time, he realizes he was nasty and decides to make amends and rings her up. She comes to the phone after many rings, and the irritated husband says, "What took you so long to answer the phone?"

She says, "I was in bed."

"In bed this early, doing what?"

"Getting a second opinion!"

(YEP, HE HAD THAT ONE COMING, TOO!)

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Marriage (Part IV)

A man has six children and is very proud of his achievement. He is so proud of himself, that he starts calling his wife, "Mother of Six"
in spite of her objections.

One night, they go to a party. The man decides that it's time to go home and wants to find out if his wife is ready to leave as well. He shouts at the top of his voice, "Shall we go home 'Mother of Six?'

His wife, irritated by her husband's lack of discretion, shouts right back, "Anytime you're ready, Father of Four."

(RIGHT ON, LADY!)

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Marriage (Part V) The Silent Treatment

A man and his wife were having some problems at home and were giving each other the silent treatment. Suddenly, the man realized that the next day, he would need his wife to wake him at 5:00 am for an early morning business flight.

Not wanting to be the first to break the silence (and LOSE), he wrote on a piece of paper, "Please wake me at 5:00 am" He left it where he knew she would find it.

The next morning the man woke up, only to discover it was 9:00 AM and he had missed his flight. Furious, he was about to go and see why his wife hadn't wakened him, when he noticed a piece of paper by the bed. The paper said, "It is 5:00 AM. Wake up."

Men are not equipped for these kinds of contests.

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God may have created man before woman, but there is always a rough draft before the masterpiece.

Perpisahan - Anuar Zain

ku mengerti perpisahan ini
bukan kerana kau membenci
tapi kasih yang pernah ku beri
tiada lagi bersama

sering aku terlihatkan mu
impian nan indah julang bahagia

ku harungi hari demi hari
bersama wajah tak mungkin akan
kembali
tapi hati masih tak terima
ditinggalkan sengsara

keraguan ini bukanlah padamu
perasaan hati masih rindu
kekalutan ini hanyalah untukku
tercari-cari bayanganmu

tak sanggup aku kehilangan
kehilanganmu

masih tercari-cari
keraguan ini bukanlah padamu
masih tercari-cari bayanganmu
tak sanggup aku kehilanganmu


Gosh... this song speaks to me. It is an undoubtedly a beautiful song and as much as I hate to say this but Anuar Zain really sang this song well (yeah... not an Anuar Zain fan). But what really got to me was the lyrics. Whoever wrote this song... KUDOS!!

The hardest thing in life is not the part where you have to break up with someone but the part where you have to let go. Letting go of something that you once had and cherished more than anything else in the world. In time, yes, you learn to accept the fact that you lost someone but during that time only you and god knows the agony and pain of trying to deal with that lost. And this is what this song all about.

And during that time you also deal with the agony of seeing the other person, the person you loved, being happy with someone else. Because it is at this moment that you realise that you failed to make that person happy. Along with the pain of lost you now deal with the bitter sting of failure.

Why must time heal everything? No matter how optimistic you are in life the pain won't go away just like that. It'll linger until you feel like you just wanna die from it. Time... your saviour yet still your enemy.

I just wanna the pain to go away...

Sanity check

Classes starting again in a few day... whoopee!

Erqk! WRONG! I don't want to go back to uni! *whining*.

I haven't fully enjoyed my time off yet and now I have to go back to the hellhole and start bullying my brains to churn out academically based stuff. Aaarggghhh!! Why? Why? Why? I swear to GOD that after I finish off my thesis I'm gonna take a LOOOONG break and nothing and noone can stop me. How can certain people stand studying ALL the time? Don't they at least get a little depressed?

Depression... the main reason why I was silent for so long. I'm a little okay now but would a couple more semesters be the downfall of me. Me actually getting A FULL BLOWN DEPRESSION? It's a truly scary thought. Depression at the (not so) tender age of 23. *shudder*

Seriously I just can't wait to finish off my Masters. PhD can just wait. I value my sanity even more.

What's up with Asian chicks?

I've just watched episode 9 of America's Next Top Model 7. There's another Asian chick but this time she's Indian. So yeah for sure I was rooting for a fellow Asian though I didn't really see what Tyra meant that she was SOO beautiful that it was scary and that she was too beautiful at times. Maybe I'm used to seeing pretty Indian girls back here in Malaysia that she's just borderline average to me. I seriously thought that the last Asian girl, Gina, was like any other chinese ah moi if she were to come to Ipoh. It's kinda weird seeing the judges raving on and on about her cheekbones and stuff when I see far prettier chinese girls at the wet market. But then again, Westerners have always been into the "Orient". It's a fascination towards the so-called "other", you know all that bullshit that anything that doesn't look and think like them is therefore weird. But I'm not gonna go into all that shit right now. I'll probably end up writing my thesis here.

What I wanna write about is the fact that these Asian girls, considered BEAUTIFUL by their white & black contemporaries just don't think of themselves as beautiful. Gina, the Korean, was chucked out after 3 episodes because she was so insecure about herself. And this Anchal girl was kicked out after the 7th episode for the exact same reason. I kinda knew she was gonna get chucked out sooner or later. Luckily it was a lot later than the Korean girl. I just don't get why she didn't think herself pretty. She considered herself fat and ugly. Yeah she was curvier than the other girls but HELLO! Asian women have always been curvy. And she wasn't fat at all.

I think those two girls are so brainwashed by the stereotype beauty of the West that they just don't realise their own uniqueness. I was so embarassed for the two girls that I was actually cringeing whenever I watched them humiliate themselves. But most of all I was disappointed that they gave up halfway. They claimed that they wanna model more than anything but they gave up when the going got tough. I mean what the hell?!! You don't give up. If you give up when you got that far might as well not enter at all. Sheesh!

I have a friend who's beautiful, confident and has a great personality to boot but she was rejected for a local reality show, Malaysia's Most Beautiful, just because she didn't conform to the stereotype beauty that Malaysian media wants. When somebody even halfway decent comes along they get rejected straight away. What's with that? I hate that girl who won Malaysia's Most beautiful. I think she's a bitch.

I just hope that one day there will be a contestant that would actually does Asian folks proud. I dont think I can go through another cringeworthy episode of an Asian chick making an ass of herself either on local TV or an International one.

Skin Issues

Was watching the 2006 American Music Awards (AMA) last night and there is one thing I've got to comment.... they SUCK singing live. I've always been a fan of the song 'Buttons' but that night's performance was bleargh to say the least. Even their dancing didn't save them, one of them actually fell off a chair while dancing. I guess the only thing they could do was just be as sexually provocative as possible, though in my opinion with the awful singing going on it was probably impossible to achieve.

Still what got my attention the most (other than that awful singing) was the backup dancers. Have you ever noticed that when white singers perform their dancers are sexy but understatedly so but when black singers perform their dancers actually toe the line of being naked. I'm not generalising here, I mean there's plenty of black singers who are ok and there's white singers who actually cover what's 'necessary' too, but then if you watch MTV you'll know what I mean. I was watching Gwen Stefani perform and her dancers were decked out in babydoll dresses but when Jay-Z performed his dancers were in micro-bikinis.

I know plenty of parents that blocks MTV and Channel V so that their kids don't watch them. And I don't blame them really. Even at my age, I avoid watching those channels when my mom is around. Damn embarassing! Some of the performers might as well put out porn videos and call them their music videos. But then again... Sex sells nowadays. I mean just look at Nelly Furtado and Jewel, they sexed up their image just so that she can sell albums.

It's funny though these people would bite your head off if call them names (sluts, hoe, etc) but then they still insist to portray that image. Irony at it's best. It's their individual rights I guess...

Quoting Aristottle...

Anyone can become angry - that is easy.
but to be angry with the right person,
to the right degree,
at the right time
for the right purpose
and in the right way - that is not easy.
-aristotle-

I got this off from a friend. The words really struck me. Especially with the things that's going through my head right now. There's a lot of anger there and also ideas of getting even. Lots of stupid and ridiculous ideas of pushing people off a cliff or electrocuting somebody. Pretty bizarre ideas but mostly stuff that would inflict the most pain. You know, just so that people can feel the pain that I felt. But like I said... mostly delusional stuff that you have in your head. Things that you wish would happen but knows aint never gonna happen.

It sucks when things don't go your way. Especially if it goes the total opposite of how you really want to be. You try to accept it but seriously... as a human, how can you deal with something that hurts you and make you feel like crap at the same time? How can you bleed inside and pretend that it doesn't hurt? How can you not be angry and want to lash out at the person who did it to you?

But as Aristottle has said, to be angry at the right time, the right purpose and the right way is never an easy thing to do. Humans are at the very basic, an animal. Animals never have a logical approach to thing, all they do is lash out. And that's what you wanna do at first. You never think of doing something the right way. All you want to see is the exact same pain in the eyes of those who hurt you. Because at that moment that is what you feel is right. So why does something that feels so right can be so wrong?

It's wrong cause it wont solve anything. It'll just make it worse. All you get is satisfaction but oh, how the satisfaction satisfies...

Somehow it's just not worth it. A fleeting moment of satisfaction but countless hours of pain and agony. It just doesn't compare. As time passes by, you know that the only way to heal is to let time do its work. Again this sucks, humans dont really have the capability to sit still and do nothing. We were born to persevere and to never give up. When God gave us minds and intelligence, it was the greatest test that he had given on mankind. The test of using the mind wisely. As Aristottle would say... "in the right way." And in the case of anger, patience is the key. Hard to swallow but yet you have to do it.

It sucks... I know.

Single again...

I guess it's back to being single again for me, I mean what's the point of thinking that things might work out coz by the way things are looking... there isn't a hope in hell that the relationship might get better. All I am is hanging on to false hopes. Dreams that may never ever come true. *sigh*

Am I sad? Who isn't? Am I angry? A little bit (though bot as much as I used to be). But What I am feeling most of all is heartbreak and rejected. A real shitty feeling. It's like borderline sad, anger, disappointment and numbness. I hate this feeling. Makes you feel weak and vulnerable- two situations that I do NOT want to be in.

Am also feeling loneliness. After 2 years of having a constant companion, a person you thought was your other half, your soulmate, now you're all alone. I have to make a transition to being on my own, alone, single. Not an easy thing to do. Not after you've been out of the loop for so long. It's like being lost in a jungle. You ventured in far too deep and now you don't know how to get back.

It sucks being the only loner in a group of twosomes. It cant hit you any harder than your best friend wanting to keep you company but having her boyfriend hanging on her arm or a husband chauferring you to where you're headed. Sure I appreciate the effort of them including me in the couple-y activities but hey... nobody loves being the 3rd wheel.

Post-breakup mode sucks big time. And you know that time will heal all but sometimes you wish that time would hurry up. The pain, the loneliness can be unbearable at times. Unbearable up to the point you feel like giving up, which is what I'm close to doing right now.

I just wish that I could find that glimmer of hope to get me on my feet again. But again... only time will tell.

To my dear Stranger

Goodbye My Lover

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.(x2)

Hotlink Rawks!!

I know this may seem like a stupid thing to blog about but hey... whatever. This is MY blog and I'll talk about whatever hell I want.

I just got an additional RM90 from Hotlink just because I topped up RM30 a few days back. Woohoo! RM120 worth of airtime. What the hell I'm gonna do with all that credit *so much possibilities*. I've always been using my hotlink for text messaging alone. I mean who wouldn't want to text message when it just cost you 1 sen per sms. With RM10 you already get 1000 sms now with RM120... yowza!

Now this is what I call customer appreciation. Two thumbs up for Hotlink!! My fingers are gonna hurt after this with all that text messaging I'm gonna do huhu~

In pain...

I was overcomed with powerful feelings a while ago. And it was a feeling that I should not indulge in right now. Not when I'm trying to make myself strong. When things are fragile and may or may not depend on how I handle myself right now.

Overcoming strong urges is harder than it sounds. Especially for a impulsive, tempestuous person like me. It'll sap all your strength.

And I'm losing in that battle...

Lately I've been reckless. Been feeling like I dont give a shit. Like life has no meaning anymore. The things I do is useless and that I'm wasting my time.

I just feel like dropping it all...

I don't care anymore...

*sigh* I don't have the luxury...

It's amazing the strength that some people have. Not physically but mentally, emotionally and spiritually. I am weak in all these aspects. Don't really know how to be stronger. "All is well with the world!" I tell others, but inside I'm a mess. I'm breaking apart. It's a wonder that I'm still in one piece.

Why do we put so much effort into things that you're not sure it will last? When you're not guaranteed of happinness and security? Why do we put so much effort in life? It baffles me really when all that life has to offer is pain.

Pain...

A constant fixture in our journey towards the end. It's no suprise that people decide to take matters in their own hands. Why endure it? The constant pain. Maybe it is a good idea to just end it all.

Stop all that pain...

OMG I LOVE teaching!!

OMG... I never realised that I love to teach! What a revelation!

I love the exhiliration. I love the look of intense concentration of people looking at you and hanging on to your every word. You feel so IMPORTANT!!

Now I know for sure... I want to teach. There's nothing else that I'd rather do. jeez I sound so idealistic and so OLD.

I was freaking out when Dr. Nora told me I had to take over the class. Teach my friend? Oh no!! I was afraid they'd be real critical and judgemental if i did or say something wrong. But then again that's paranoia talking. It actually helps having friendly faces in the class. Especially close friend coz u know they'll love you no matter what (thanks Sarah!)

So all in all it was fun and I wouldn't mind doing it again. And the pay is not too shabby either. Hehe! Definitely worth my time. Hope that I didn't screw up Dr. Nora's instructions too much though. Then there'll be bitch to pay. Haha!

Onwards to become Cikgu Liana!!

p.s. To all error and contrastive class that I taught today, tak payah la panggil Miss or Maam or anything of the sort. Geli la...

Help Stop the bloodshed

Dear friends,

Right now a tragedy is unfolding in the Middle East. Hundreds of civilians have died in the bombings in Lebanon, Israel and Palestine and the death toll is rising every day.

UN Secretary General Kofi Annan has called for an immediate ceasefire and UK Prime Minister Tony Blair has joined Annan in calling for the deployment of international troops to the Israel-Lebanon border. This is the best proposal yet to stop the violence, but for it to succeed other global leaders need to get behind it immediately.

I have just signed a petition urging regional and global leaders to speak out and support Kofi Annan's proposal. If people around the world can persuade their governments to unite in demanding a ceasefire, all sides in this conflict will be pressured to stand down. Can you sign the petition too?

Ceasefire campaign

The petition will be sent to key regional and global leaders and publicized in major newspapers in the Middle East, US and Europe. With enough signatures we can help pressure our leaders to stop the violence.

Thanks!

Sarah's Bachelorette Party

The tiara that we got her looked something like this. But less shiny and expensive ;P

Yeap... me being the bride-to-be best pal I had the responsibility of throwing a bachelorette/ hen party for Sarah. Not that I mind. I love to organise and manage stuff despite the occasional setbacks thrown at me.

So the party was on Friday, 4th August held in "The Zon in the Park" (yeah... yeah, Datuk K's hotel), an all-nighter and only bee-you-tee-full babes were invited. Guys just complicate matter. Don't get me started on a certain hypocritical boufriend who acted like this sporting boyfriend who's cool about stuff and suddenly decides to give the girlfriend a hard time when she's already at the party. Sheesh! *cooling down* Some couldn't make it but that's ok coz the party was a blast and it would've been better if the others came. The apartment was great and thank god for Sheena's Auntie Nun, we had it for a really reasonable price. I'm definitely planning to go there again someday.

My main concern was the food. Was it too little? Will they get hungry? Is it good? Do I need to order more? Where will I get money to order more? My worries were baseless. Apparently the food was BERLAMBAK-LAMBAK and we couldn't even finish it the next morning. Such a shame that all the food had to be thrown out. As much as some of us loves food we just couldn't stuff our face any further.

My next concern was will Sarah have a good time? Not that I worry much since Sheena, my lovely co-host was a great entertainment hostess. You wouldn't believe all the naughty and kinky games that was played that night. Suffice to say that plenty of stripping and porno stuff went on and it was all done for the reason of educating the bride to be. Let's just hope Tarmizi will appreciate the lessons ;P Why all the stripping? Well... since we couldn't afford a real live stripper we just decided to go ahead and do it ourselves. Haha! So my mission was accomplished. Sarah had a blast (Sheena and I have a thank-you rose each. Yey!). She relaxed (which was a big deal since the wedding details are getting more and more stressful) and she had loads of fun with her friends. In a way it was kinda like a reunion so that added to the fun too. I hope she puts that tiara we got her for full use. We used the tiara to show who the main focus of the party was. Certain people can forget sometimes, if you know what I mean.

So all in all the party was a HUGE success for me. I could have done without the sudden petty politics that came in before-hand and the sudden tearful confessions session that happened in the middle of the night (girls... we're known for our affinity with feelings and tears). For me it was kinda a limelight stealer incident. Not that I didn't feel for those who confessed but yeah... I could have gone without it. It had its benefits, at least people know what they feel about each other now, revelations were made and things patched up so it's not really a big deal.

Any regrets? Not really. Just that a good bash like this shouldn't wait till another girl decides to get married. Too bad that none of us are filthy rich or at least have a filthy rich boyfriend who could sponsor the whole thing. It's not fun when everyone have to fork out some cash for a party. Haha!

Any pic? LOADS. But I think I should protect the eyes of every male who might read this blog and not risk their eyes popping out of their sockets ;P

Chivalry dead?

Chivalry is dead. Gone are the days when men were gentlemanly and strong. Gone were the days of heroics and valour. Now we just see selfishness and greed.

What happened to the men? Have they become so weak that to give up a seat for a needy person is unbearable for them? A few minutes of standing would kill them? Where have all the men with respect and politeness gone to? What happened to the men who would open doors for you, and carry your stuff and politely giving way if a woman crosses his path? It's like unless they're paid to do so, then people can just forget about being treated that way.

Remember the ad of the man in the lrt that refuses to stand up and give his seat to needier people who didn't manage to get a seat? Notice that the selfish one was a guy and the needy people were all women? Is it coincidental or a just a potrayal of what our men has evolved into?Nowadays I see women who would stand up to give a senior citizen a seat on the lrt. A teenage girl would stand up and give a pregnant lady a seat and I also see a men pointedly ignoring a lady with a child desperately trying to keep balance on the moving train while at the same time ensuring that her child is safe. What is happening to the men nowadays?

I'm a feminist but I don't go round saying that woman are better than men. I believe in equity and I believe that god has created men and women in the world with unique responsibilities befitting their gender. Nor do I go round saying that women should be treated like a fragile being which would shatter at just the meerest jolt. What I'm trying to say here is that women nowadays understand that they too need to be strong. We can stand in the lrt if need be and we dont need a man to offer his seat to us just because we're a woman but my focus is about respect and selflessness. The act of chivalry goes a long way with people and leaves a far lasting impression than anything else. Up to this very day I still remember the guy who gave up his seat for me just because I decided to give up my seat to a blind man. Although I would never meet him again he has my lifelong respect.

Chivalry is dead. Or at the very least dying. I apologise to those who have this admirable trait in them but I feel that once these men are gone from this world their trait would die with them.

Although, just this one time I want to be proven wrong.

New York ,USA 80%
Zurich, Switzerland 77%
Toronto, Canada 70%
Berlin , Germany 68%
São Paulo , Brazil 68%
Zagreb , Croatia 68%
Auckland, New Zealand 67%
Warsaw , Poland 67%
Mexico City ,Mexico 65%
Stockholm ,Sweden 63%
Budapest , Hungary 60%
Madrid , Spain 60%
Prague , Czech Republic 60%
Vienna , Austria 60%
Buenos Aires , Argentina 57%
Johannesburg, South Africa 57%
Lisbon, Portugal 57%
London, United Kingdom 57%
Paris , France 57%
Amsterdam , Netherlands 52%
Helsinki ,Finland 48%
Manila , Philippines 48%
Milan , Italy 47%
Sydney ,Australia 47%
Bangkok , Thailand 45%
Hong Kong , 45%
Ljubljana ,Slovenia 45%
Jakarta , Indonesia 43%
Taipei , Taiwan 43%
Moscow , Russia 42%
Singapore 42%
Seoul , South Korea 40%
Kuala Lumpur , Malaysia 37%
Bucharest ,Romania 35%
Mumbai , India 32%

For those who ar wondering what the heck that list is, it's the ranking for the most polite countries in the world and YES!! MALAYSIA IS THE THIRD RUDEST COUNTRY IN THE WORLD!!

Yes people... time to deal with it. It's so true! If foreigners and tourist can say that Malaysians are rude to them, what say us the citizens of Malaysia. We're treated like crap!! I have been in numerous situations where my own race treats me like I'm shit based on my dressing. Come on... sure 1st impression counts but if you want business treat people with respect! A friend of mine was advised to leave a Levi's outlet just because he wasn't wearing shoes. He was wearing one of those stylish flip flops but apparently the salesperson wasn't impressed. Well... he must have regretted what he said when the guy bought two pairs of jeans and told the manager about his manners.

Malaysians don't teach manners to their kids anymore. We see parents bringing little kids to important functions and letting them run wild and disturbing whatever is going on. Cinema, weddings, restaurants... you name it there's always kids that are let loose while their parents ignore the fact that they're causing a racket.

Irony is that our government is promoting this "Budi Bahasa Budaya Kita" (courtesy is our culture) shit while the rudest of the lot are government officials. The last time I dealt with government officials was when I had to certify my grandma's death certificate. I went there and there was nobody at the counter. So I sat down and calmly waited. Soon a lady officer came and what do you know the person who came after me rushed to the counter and immediately got served. Me being the polit girl that I am waited because in my mind I'm thinking he's an old man who doesn't know about manners. After that it was my turn. All was fine when suddenly this man out of nowhere came right next to me and started asking about his problems and that lady (I'm guessing he was a friend of hers coc they were all smiley) immediately went on to take care of his affair. And I was aaarrrggghhh!! Hello! I'm right here in front of your counter!!

There's been many cases of that in hospitals, in post offices and in any administrative offices. So tell me where the hell is this "Budi Bahasa Budaya Kita" that we're so proud of. Government clerks can just stop in between duties and chat while we're there waiting for them to settle whatever it is we need settling. If we even open our mouths to tell them to get a move on they'll probably sabotage us. My mum was scolded at once during a tax review recently. What's the purpose of putting enquiry officers at a enquiry desk if you dont want people to ask you questions. How dumb can that be?

I know that most government servants are Malays and it may seem like I'm dissing my own race but hell no! I'm dissing all Malaysians. Chinese have a habit of spitting everywhere and I have come within an inch of getting hit with a spitball. Indians tend to be impatient and sometimes look down on people they think aren't educated. I've seen the astonished looks people gave me when I speak fluent English after I tried communicating in Malay. What's wrong with conversing in my mother tongue?

A lot of difference can be made with just a smile and a simple Thank You but no... it's simply too much of a hassle to say 2 simple words and stretch you mouth muscles.

This issue bout 'MAWI'

Today is the American Independance Day and looks like Mawi gained independance too. From his Fiance. This "Mawi Craze" is never gonna die down is it. Granted that he'll probably be one of the nation's top artists but you would think that after a while his "WORLD" aura would simmer down just a little but NO... he rises like a phoenix from the ashes.

*sigh* Kinda getting sick of all this Hoo-Haa bout this kampung-boy gone big. Seriously, he's not even that cute. Just blessed with a whole lot of charisma I guess. But unlike the time when he first made his appearance, this time there's mixed reactions. Anger, suprise, sympathy, disgust. Kinda makes this whole "putus-tunang" debacle fun to watch. On one side there his ardent followers supporting his every move and claiming that 'It wasn't Mawi's fault! Diana blabbed to the world bout the engagement' while on the other side is these people saying that 'Mawi lupa daratan! (ungrateful)'. Hehe! Dilemma isn't it? I wonder how Mawi gonna get through this. You could check out Astro's channel 15&16 and there's this bunch of people who has no better things to do with their time and money cussing at each other about the Mawi and Diana issue. And all this while Mawi is oblivious to what's going on coz he's too busy making money from these people.

Kinda reminds me bout the whole Sharifah Aini incident. The issue of her hate campaign against Siti and her mock attack incident. Artists will do just about anything to keep their names in the papers. It's just so embarassing at times. However are you gonna show your face in public again? I mean the next time she shows up for a show people will just whisper behind her back about how she tried to bring Siti down. Sharifah Aini can never again be seen at any function where Siti is present.

One thing I noticed with the gossip columns in Malaysian magazines or papers is that fans here are really, really nosy and MEAN. And the artists themselves are crude, extremely superficial and somewhat stupid. Somehow I dont get that impression when I read anything about Hollywood stars. Sure they have stupid incidents too but somehow they show more class. Or maybe the reporters have more class. Hmm...

Back to the Mawi issue... I'm waiting for the moment that it'll all die down again coz my mum is going on and on and on bout him and I'm getting sick (Yes, she's Mawi's die hard fan.) I guess the only time when people will lose interest is after he gets married but before that happens his marriage will probably be the wedding of the century. If that happens and he gets divorced like Erra and Yusry, man... that's another embarassment he has to live down. Artists... when will they learn?

ABC's of Life

A--Accept
Accept others for who they are and for the choices they've made even
if you have difficulty understanding their beliefs, motives, or
actions.

B--Break Away
Break away from everything that stands in the way of what you hope
to accomplish with your life.

C--Create
Create a family of friends whom you can share your hopes, dreams,
sorrows, and happiness with.

D--Decide
Decide that you'll be successful and happy come what may, and good
things will find you. The roadblocks are only minor obstacles along
the way.

E--Explore
Explore and experiment. The world has much to offer, and you have
much to give. And every time you try something new, you'll learn
more about yourself.

F--Forgive
Forgive and forget. Grudges only weigh you down and inspire
unhappiness and grief. Soar above it, and remember that everyone
makes mistakes.

G--Grow
Leave the childhood monsters behind. They can no longer hurt you or
stand in your way.

H--Hope
Hope for the best and never forget that anything is possible as long
as you remain dedicated to the task.

I--Ignore
Ignore the negative voice inside your head. Focus instead on your
goals and remember your accomplishments. Your past success is only a
small inkling of what the future holds.

J--Journey
Journey to new worlds, new possibilities, by remaining open-minded.
Try to learn something new every day, and you'll grow.

K--Know
Know that no matter how bad things seem, they'll always get better.
The warmth of spring always follows the harshest winter.

L--Love
Let love fill your heart instead of hate. When hate is in your
heart, there's room for nothing else, but when love is in your
heart, there's room for endless happiness.

M--Manage
Manage your time and your expenses wisely, and you'll suffer less
stress and worry. Then you'll be able to focus on the important
things in life.

N--Notice
Never ignore the poor, infirm, helpless, weak, or suffering. Offer
your assistance when possible, and always your kindness and
understanding.

O--Open
Open your eyes and take in all the beauty around you. Even during
the worst of times, there's still much to be thankful for.

P--Play
Never forget to have fun along the way. Success means nothing
without happiness.

Q--Question
Ask many questions, because you're here to learn.

R--Relax
Refuse to let worry and stress rule your life, and remember that
things always have a way of working out in the end.

S--Share
Share your talent, skills, knowledge, and time with others.
Everything that you invest in others will return to you many times
over.

T--Try
Even when your dreams seem impossible to reach, try anyway. You'll
be amazed by what you can accomplish.

U--Use
Use your gifts to your best ability. Talent that's wasted has no
value. Talent that's used will bring unexpected rewards.

V--Value
Value the friends and family members who've supported and encouraged
you, and be there for them as well.

W--Work
Work hard every day to be the best person you can be, but never feel
guilty if you fall short of your goals. Every sunrise offers a
second chance.

X--X-Ray
Look deep inside the hearts of those around you and you'll see the
goodness and beauty within.

Y--Yield
Yield to commitment. If you stay on track and remain dedicated,
you'll find success at the end of the road.

Z--Zoom
Zoom to a happy place when bad memories or sorrow rears its ugly
head. Let nothing interfere with your goals. Instead, focus on your
abilities, your dreams, and a brighter tomorrow.

Animals

Just Watched



Yeah I'm currently in my Disney aka feel-good movie moment right now. Sides not many good movies going on at the moment. 'Superman' is still aint out (it's taking ages. Hurry up already!) and 'Pirates of the Carribean' aint comint out til July so what the heck, feel-good movies it is.

Talking bout Disney movies, I just watched Bambi on Astro. To tell you the truth I've never sat through Bambi til the end. Didn't manage to stay put in front of the TV this time too. Luckily I didnt coz I know what's gonna happen next. No I'm not talking bout the part where Bambi's mother dies but I'm talking about the part where I'll blubber like a leaking pot if I watch any thing that shows animals dying. Yeap, I'm weak. Absolutely weak when it comes to animals. I cried so hard when I watched that New Zealand whale flick (can't remember the title) I couldn't even breath. I cried during 'The Lion King', '8 Below', and so many Animal Planet's documentaries that if all my tears were collected it could fill a water tank. I'm serious folks. I'm a pushover for animals. It's kinda funny coz I don't get people crying over movies like Titanic and Armagedoon and all those romances and I'm sure they don't get me crying over a penguin getting lost while looking for food.

I just hate it when I read stuff in the news bout people killing off bears and tigers or any other beautiful animals just so they can eat the balls or the brains or something coz they're supposed to be an aphrodisiac. Oh puh-leeze. Total bullshit that's what it is. I'm sure that God made tiger's balls to function as more than to boost a man's libido. Seriously if it's something that viagra can't fix then just learn to live with it. Just because you can't have sex that doesn't give you the right to stop animals from getting 'some' too. How would you feel if you were hunted down for your balls coz there's a rumour that it'll up a person's sex drive? Not a very good thought now is it?

And please... FUR is NOT COOL!! Again... imagine being skinned coz somebody else wants to wear your skin as a coat. Eww... that's kinda disgusting. It's just like in that movie 'Silence of the Lambs' where the killer kills people to take their skin. Yuck! Seriously people like Naomi Campbell should be shot for wearing fur. Public figures should know better.

I just wish that Malaysians would treat their animals better. I've seen some really nasty stuff going on in some household but I just dont have the power to stop it. I tried once and I got threatened that she'll let the dog on me instead. Hmm... irony isn't it. But I'm glad that SPCA is doing something about it. They're making a petition to up the penalty for animal cruelty in Malaysia and they're hoping to get 100 000 signatures. So PLEASE sign the petition (you can actually do it online) Go to SPCA and sign the form. Be a good citizen and prevent animal cruelty!